New Beginnings

As many of you know Haydan has beeen out of the military since December of '09 and has been searching for a civilian job since. It's been hard on the both of us. But yesterday Haydan got a call saying he is being hired!! He wil be Working for a company that makes carbon fiber insulation for things like the Boeing air planes and other things. I am so proud of him. I knew he nailed that interview and composition test. So now we are on a search for a second car that can get Haydan from point A to point B so that I am not stuck at home all day without a car. This is for another point of some good news. We are once again pregnant. I will need to be able to get myself to my dr. appointments and Alex to his therapy.
I am as of tomorrow 11 weeks along. I am due february 2nd. 2011. I have had an ultrasound every two weeks since I found out, making sure that the baby had been implanted correctly and is growing and thriving as we had a miscarry last year. So far so good. There has been a heartbeat every time and everything looks good and normal. I personally was very upset when I first found out. I was feeling a lot of things actually. I was feeling angry because "geez,what timing." Haydan nor I had any income but Haydan's unemployment which wasn't going to last forever, we are only living in a 2 bedroom apartment so we will eventually have to move, and with Haydan still trying to get help for his PTSD, and the uncertanty of "is this one going to miscarry as well?" I was scared to lose yet again and yet happy at the same time because I knew there was one more in store for us to make our family complete. Finding out I was yet again pregnant was an emotional roller coaster ride for me for the first few weeks or so as I'm sure it was for Haydan. I was waiting to tell everyone becasue I wanted to make sure this one was going to make it, and I am confident that this baby is healthy, thriving and will become a very big part of our family.
Olivia says she doesn't want another brother because she says he will just grow up and be just as, if not more, annoying than Alex. You can't do anything but laugh at that one. Alex says he also wants a brother. At one point a couple of weeks ago Alex told my good firend and neighbor and then me that he had had a dream. And in that dream and angel came to him and told him that Mommy was going to have a baby boy. It was so cute and very humbling as Alex is stil very close to the viel. So if what Alex told me is correct I will in no way be suprised. I will find out what flavor the baby is about mid to late September.
So wish us all luck on our new adventures with this new job of Haydan's and our precious gift to add to our wonderful family.